She spent those final months doing what she had always done best: putting everything in order.
She updated her will.
Organized financial documents.
Made arrangements for her house.
Said goodbye carefully to Nora and Caitlin.
And near the end, she tried to say something to me.
She was holding my hand when she whispered, “You have been the best thing in my life.”
I told her she had been the same for me.
Then she looked at me with an expression I still cannot forget.
“I want you to know the truth.”
“What truth?”
Her eyes closed for a moment.
“I was going to tell you. I wanted to tell you.”
Then she drifted away again.
She never finished the sentence.
Those were the last completely coherent words she ever said to me.
I want you to know the truth.
Her funeral was held on a Saturday near the end of March.
Joe behaved exactly as a supportive husband should.
He sat beside me.
Held my hand.
Spoke kindly to relatives.
Helped whenever something needed to be done.
I remember being grateful for him.
Then, during the reception, I realized he was gone.
I went looking for him.
Near the viewing room, I heard his voice through a partially open door.
He was alone with my mother’s coffin.
I stopped before he could see me.
“I kept our secret, Margaret,” he said quietly.
My body went rigid.
“No one ever found out.”
There was a pause.
Then he said something that changed everything.
“It’ll stay buried under the red maple in your yard forever.”
I stepped backward before he came out.
My heart was hammering.
I returned to the reception and pretended nothing had happened.
I spoke to relatives.
Held a cup of tea I never drank.
Smiled when necessary.